Hared times. Hated. Depressed. Pitted. All at once.

Hey guys. So I got an email asking about my worst moment. Pretty much the hardest time in my life. A lot of you guys are thinking "your six grade year right?" well to be honest, no. The hardest time for me was in 8th grade. I never told anyone about this. Near the end of the year I hit rock bottom. I was upset, I felt hated. I felt pitted. Misunderstood. All at once. The force was so great it pushed me to many mental break downs and deep depression. (may I add, I am not joking. I never told anyone, not even Darry. What I am about to tell you I went through by myself.) I felt like I was hated by everyone other then three people (Darry, Brooke, and Pony) but I felt pitted by them. I cried every night and it hurt so much. I resorted to taking a pencil eraser and cutting myself with it (it's true and hurts). Then we went to knotts for the end of the year trip. I know what your thinking. Everything got better! No. I was in a group with my friends (might I add we didn't have to hang out with our group.) and I went off with Brooke to have funX we hit a lot of rides, and I was happy. Then we came back. My friends mom (never forgave her) started screaming at me. I was in tears and so much pain! It felt like bricks that weight a ton were dropped on my chest at once. This caused me mental pain that I still go through. I couldn't speak, let alone breath. It came clear to Brooke that I was hyperventilating (I was not, I was having a serouis panic attack.) Brooke then did something I will never forget. She went against what she was taught by her family and stood up for me. She yelled at the mom (in a respectful way. Kinda.) and was my hero. Then I realized the Outsiders nick names we have where true. I was truely Johnny, being mentally hurt by that and was a lost puppy dog, and she was Dally, who always stood up for him. After that I went through some more mental break downs, and never fully recovered. That, my Destins, is the worst thing I went through. Bye for now, Shadow out!